I haven't posted since July, and no one will probably read this, but I just felt the need to post, maybe to make me feel better? Idk
There's parts of my life that couldn't be better right now, I'm happy and secure in my relationship, my bond with my Mom, Dad, and sister is really good right now.
But then there's things that I wish I could change, but sometimes I feel like I have no control over them. Sometimes I feel as though too much is changing, relationships with people are changing. There's certain people that I always want in my life, and sometimes I feel like that's not going to happen. Sometimes I worry that I don't put enough effort into things, but then again it's hard when no one comes to you with issues. Sometimes I don't know what to do, and I just want someone to tell me what's wrong, and what I'm doing wrong so I can fix it. Sometimes I just feel like giving up and walking away, but I know that that's not the right thing to do, and things are really meant to be you'll fight for it no matter what.
And to know people are talking about you? Yeah that hurts, but it happens I guess. Again, I wish people would come to me.
This has been very therapeutic and feels good to get this all out.