My mom has registered a team for the San Diego Lung Cancer walk in May. Their team is taking donations, to help fund research and awareness for lung cancer. They are walking in memory of my Grandma Jane. If you'd like to make a donation go to go to www.sdbreathofhope.kintera.org and search for team jane and go to general donation. Any amount would help.
I'd appreciate it if anyone could help, this means a lot to me and I wish I could be there but I can't
I wish I could fast forward my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm pretty content with things that are going on, but there are things that aren't going so well. I'm just sick of things.
The whole putting on a smile so people don't know what is really going on is getting really old really fast. But I've got to, don't want to let people in. I dislike the fact that I feel like I have no one, that Someone is going to judge me, or turn around and make fun of me when I say things. And I know it's probably not true, but I can't help it. I think I've been completely walked over, dismissed, screwed over, so many time, that sadly it's what I've come to expect. I know it's probably not what's going on, but it's the norm for me, so I can't help but think it. All I want is people to come to me.. I don't think that's too much to ask.. really I don't.
I haven't posted since July, and no one will probably read this, but I just felt the need to post, maybe to make me feel better? Idk
There's parts of my life that couldn't be better right now, I'm happy and secure in my relationship, my bond with my Mom, Dad, and sister is really good right now.
But then there's things that I wish I could change, but sometimes I feel like I have no control over them. Sometimes I feel as though too much is changing, relationships with people are changing. There's certain people that I always want in my life, and sometimes I feel like that's not going to happen. Sometimes I worry that I don't put enough effort into things, but then again it's hard when no one comes to you with issues. Sometimes I don't know what to do, and I just want someone to tell me what's wrong, and what I'm doing wrong so I can fix it. Sometimes I just feel like giving up and walking away, but I know that that's not the right thing to do, and things are really meant to be you'll fight for it no matter what.
And to know people are talking about you? Yeah that hurts, but it happens I guess. Again, I wish people would come to me.
This has been very therapeutic and feels good to get this all out.
Wow, I haven't posted here since February!!
Let's see the main things that have happened to me:
-I've started dating someone. His name is Travis and I'm really happy with him.
-Went to New York in June for 3 days and Saw a Yankees game. I can't express the feeling of being in Yankee stadium.
-I went home to San Diego for a week.
-We are going to 2 Jb shows this tour!
That's a brief overview, I'll try and update at least once a week now!
Man oh man, school, has been kicking my ass, and we've only been at it for 2 weeks. I think if I wasn't working 30-35 hours a week on top of school it wouldn't be so bad.
I actually had the weekend off, spent Saturday out and about. I went with Elizabeth to Short Pump, and Hollister was having a sale, so I got 2 flannels that were 50 dollars regularly for 15 dollars a piece.
When Jessica got off, we went to Old Navy. I bought some really cute stuff. On our way home me and Jess had a very deep conversation. Haha it was really nice, and she kept making me laugh. But it was good talking. And it was good hanging out with Jess.
Her 21st birthday is coming up and I have something planned for her, and I wanna tell her but she won't let me. But it's gonna be fun.
And everyone do this MEME
Reply to this post, and I'll tell you one reason why I like you. Then re-post this and spread the love.
The first FIVE people to comment in this post get to request that I write a drabble of any pairing/character of their choosing. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level. (If you absolutely can't write, I don't see why you wouldn't be able to offer drawings or icons or something instead.)
I have to do journal entries, so I wanna write some fic...